Spiritual Birth Pains —Worth Waiting For: Personal Update

Spiritual Birth Pains Worth Waiting Dove Faith

     So many things are worth waiting for. But, it’s only inside our times of patience where we have a chance to realize it. — The reflections there create anticipation, humility, and gratitude.  The anticipation gets to imagine and savor thoughts of what it would be like to have whatever it is we’re waiting for. It preludes and practices the impending joy! The humility begins to acknowledge and recognize the value of whatever we’re waiting for by the condition of being left without it. Gratitude happens upon receiving! Gratitude lasts, however, through wisdom.

Wisdom may or may not be born amid our season of humbly waiting. Think it depends on what you were waiting for, or who.  Depends on the level of expectancy.

If you were waiting on God, who is holy and righteous even in His choices to withhold certain things completely… then a greater value is created in what gifts we receive. At least, if His gifts are not taken for granted, which oftentimes are because we don’t have to wait or fear being without, He simply provides the good thing, and we’ve never had the time to see the value in God giving us something He could have withheld.

Isaiah 53:8 He [Jesus] was taken from prison and from judgment, And who will declare His generation? For He was cut off from the land of the living; For the transgressions of My people He was stricken.

Mark 14:36 
And He said, “Abba, Father, all things are possible for You. 
Take this cup away from Me; nevertheless, not what I will, but what You will.
 
 

Whatever God plans to do in your life, if you are a Christian, will be good. You will always be rewarded!!

• Allow God to be your portion. Allow for His heart and every promise He does make to be faithfully believed and fulfill you. Enjoy Him as a Father, and make your salvation and relationship your treasure, and the desires of your heart will be satisfied. God will not withhold any good thing.

Whatever is not in good timing or purpose for your Spirit will not be given; whatever is will not be withheld. Have no idols in the world. Seek no selfish ambition. Then God can entrust you with all things because your heart is aligned with His.

(Note: this is for His perfect gifts. Not everyone has purified their heart to receive gifts from God, they’re simply graces, but only a pure heart can truly cherish.)

The entire world will be a pure delight if you prioritize the purity of your Spirit in Him! He can be our beautiful light at any moment.

Jeremiah 29:11-13 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.

Ephesians 3: 20-21 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.


I am very thankful for the revelations God has given me. — For this alone, I want to truly honor Him the best I can with my life! His heart is what pushes me in sanctification. It leads me to say no to what would cause me to sin and yes to what would lead me in more joy in Him. (I am not yet perfect in my decision making, of course, but my heart breaks over wrongs and perseveres for truth and obedience.) 

• We all have the great opportunity of coming alongside God and joining His heart and desire to see righteousness and redemption in the world, through Christ and reunion with His will and kingdom. We as Christians have the opportunity to preach and share the gift of God’s word, the seeds which could fall under the same wind that mysteriously blows and brings the Holy Spirit! We have the chance to see someone’s eyes opened to eternal pleasure and purpose!

This is my goal going forward, and the enemy hates it! He hates our freedom. He hates faith. He desires to sift every drop of hope out of us, but God seals His people! We will experience trials, but we will also experience victory! Our Spirit knows the way home! It will always long for God and to put off the sin that causes us to stumble and doubt. It will always return home, simply by God’s ordinance and faithful lovingkindness.

Do not take advantage of His nature! The Holy Spirit cannot! It will hear the calls for repentance and keep us on track.


Every promise of God’s is worth the wait! The heavenly kingdom/ new creation that we look forward to, and any good work of redemption that God will work through us here on earth! Seek and you’ll find. We are alive to ask God anything! We are alive in opportunities!


• Very vulnerable share ahead (I want for this blog to mark a point in time. I’m the type of person who wouldn’t mind my life being a biography [if it would benefit someone] so this is like a journal entry that I’m glad to share!):

I am using my gifts in this life of opportunities (including that of time to study God’s word, which guides and grounds us/ keeps me!), and I am writing this blog to share that I truly look forward to every glorious possibility! So excited in fact that there’s been spiritual warfare in the midst, the enemy taking his chance to deter me as per usual.

Lately, I’ve been referring to my spiritual warfare as birth pains though. The enemy has always loved to kill, steal, and destroy the visions and people of God, but God brings them forward, beyond enemies, war, famine, or whatever other life distraction rebelling against the good vision of God’s hope to try and shut out our faith and trust. God continues and completes what He promises! 

The desires and goals I have right now if obtained are well worth the wait! It dawned on me how much my life will truly transition at their happening! (All of my treasure is in heaven btw! I learn in my waiting not only the value of my desires but also of my God as I mentioned earlier. Whether He allows these things to come to pass or not, I love Him and would only regret not living for Him. My pursuit is a luxury that He may or may not grant for His glory. But I will steward, pray, and look out for great lands of harvest!)

I have set goals to accomplish (from thought to grow in godly passion and steward well), and I am eager in making this blog! I love reading and watching people share their aspirations! Maybe this will also be a great delight and conversation for you too!

So here, to anyone interested in my present hopes, heart, and direction! 

My Top Three Life Goals:

  1. Liberation
  2. Express Full Creative Potential
  3. Have a Family

→ I am so spiritually liberated! I thank God for my freedom from any negative mentalities in this world. I am now seeking physical liberation, to have a home where I can say “As for me and my house, I will serve the Lord.” To move out of my parent’s home would change my life completely! I hold back so much of my spiritual joy because of my environment, and I cannot wait to go out and shine! The Holy Spirit is leading me to sow elsewhere, but I am restricted right now. I am trying to financially earn my freedom. My heart is not a slave, but I feel like my hand still owes so much to “Ceasar”, so I am also seeking liberation in this sense. After I move out, the last thing that will still be indebted to the world is a bit of my time, as I continue to work and seek to be responsible with my money, so that I can gain financial freedom if possible. I will live within my means. Regardless I will honor God! Having your own earns your own rights. God is the ultimate protector! But He can also use practical provision! I pray and aim for liberation!

→ My second goal is to continue mastering the arts! I want to learn more and create more for God’s glory. I have so many ideas, and honestly, I believe they’re endless! I believe I’m meant to create forever alongside God! When I say I want to express my full creative potential, there are certain art mediums I want to use and book topics I feel called to address. I would like to hone in on those, and see a great product/ work amount for God’s glory in each. — Visit my CreatorDaisyJ section on my website to see a few more details on my creative interest if you’d like to know! (I have recently accomplished the steps of mini launching my art shop, and fully publishing a book of poetry! It’s been amazing to see those doors fly open for my new charge and stance in the room! It’s what’s giving me so much optimism that just maybe God will fulfill these desires, because I should not be where I am right now! I’ve been so discouraged by life, but I know what I make has eternal value, and I am beautiful in God’s eyes, and in my own because I value His opinion above all. I also know how inspired I’ve been by so many things, and I’m thankful to play in this realm and hope He sends it with that same influence and power! I pray He fulfills all of my potential hopes! “My” meaning He could exceed me! What if!)

→ Lastly, I have to admit that I’d love to have a family. This is hard for me to announce because so many people have this longing, even to an idolatrous and sinful degree. God is father and love, and family is where the enemy does most of his counterfeiting. Having a family is like a “cure-all” milestone in the eyes of most of the world, but I do not view it that way. It’s only because I’m happy that I want a family. I want to give a child a good parent. I want to give a spouse a good wife. And I want to understand relationships for the sake of unity, God’s plans, and love more. I am often David in his thought of “Who do I have in heaven but You God,” and it is not said with sadness, but bittersweet pride. It’s said with the recognition that people are flawed and will never complete me. God is my all. I want to have a family with Him. I want to experience my gift of life also with the gift of family.

Physical and emotional intimacy says a lot about God’s heart, and I want that more in my friendships and in a partner and family. I am not desperate for any relationship other than God. If I were I would have taken more opportunities, but I want God’s blessing and best. I don’t want to rush or settle. I don’t want to get bound up inside any space stagnated by sin (like wandering the wilderness for 40 unnecessary years). I don’t want sin accepted in the room because that takes away intimacy with God, which is what I need for my intimacy with people to feel special. It’s sharing the heart of worship that makes it a full 360. I ask myself if this is possible to have on earth? I think so, at least for moments at a time. No relationship will be sinless, that’s not what I’m searching for, rather the presence of the Holy Spirit telling me that I am where I should be, and so are those alongside me. It’s His consistent elevation that will make those “times of struggle” rewarding. I do believe this is rare, but only impossible if I give up on it. I’m not willing to give up on glory! What brings glory to God? Not sin. I will have faith, grow, seek, knock, and ask! Who knows? Maybe I’ll wear God out, or maybe He’s a good father who will give me something else!


I’d love to hear what God has you dreaming up for His glory! I say have

big faith

, and exit those comfortable places of doubt and fearing to put your heart before God! His “no’s” will only tell us more about Him, redirect us in His will, and get us closer to a heart that knows what greatness could possibly be ahead in God’s mind to fulfill!


I am fulfilled by God! The enemy knows this! He knows the honor I will bring to God’s name if I get liberation, fully creative, and start a family of my own, and he has been pushing against these things since I was born. But like I shortly made mention of, I am published, and creating amazing art (if I do say so myself! lol! haha!) and I have hope that cannot be taken in Christ! The enemy was never supposed to allow me to get this far! God alone is in control! He knows what I can bear! He knows what is next! Maybe the world will not carry my character. Maybe God will allow it. Either way, I have all these things in Christ! I continue to blossom in Him!

Spiritual warfare for me has looked like envy and people trying to discourage and sabotage me. It has looked like technical failures and a lack of resources. It has been exhaust and physical disability. It has been temptations sent to get financial freedom, creative glory, and family in a sinful non-God-honoring way in the world, but I will not accept or quit. Please pray for me, and I am also praying that God will do mighty and great things in and for generations to come! If this world will not shift to worship, Lord Jesus come! But if there is an opportunity, then let’s take part and pray for redemption and success, and God’s kingdom come! I have faith that mountains can move! God has shown me great things! Does that promise He will also show the world? No. Either way, He’s worthy! I hold truth and zeal in my Spirit! God bless!

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