22 vibes
OK I find it enjoyable to push myself and I have fun conquering things! And so direct or indirect challenges to match or exceed the drive and wonderful talents of others is exciting to me!
Not that I care for beating anyone though… I’m not speaking of an ego trip that burns out, but more so about maintaining ambition and a passionate journey. Basically, enjoying life, being your best and then beating that! (this is like the mentality of the super saiyans I use to watch lol) Inspiring and encouraging others by example, and experiencing that as well.
Like the scripture verses:
• Iron sharpens iron. (Proverbs27:17)
• “Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor. Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord.” Romans 12:10-11 ESV
• “Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown. Therefore I run thus: not with uncertainty. Thus I fight: not as one who beats the air.” I Corinthians 9:24-26 NKJV
Reflection
When I was age 20 and on the brink of 21 I was convinced that 19 was the dream age, because I wanted to be under that “young” title as I accomplished things (big or small) for as long as possible. I see young chefs, doctors, authors and I love specifically that they’re young! It’s inspiring to me, as it paints a notice of God-given talent, and the natural urge of work-ethic/goals/zeal (whether they see it that way or not), and I love seeing that side of life and passion in others. 21 though a coveted age, as you’re legal, an adult and “free” didn’t sound as liberating, wise or positively zealous as I personally related to age 19… But I became 20 and 21 despite that thought…. and what a gift it is and has been!
Everyday is truly a blessing! Because God’s made it where if anything good and of love is accomplished it is the most beautiful and grand thing in His eyes and those in His divine kingdom! And delighting Him is my delight. I know now that those goals, achievements and victories never get old, despite time or age, as it curates those wonderful feelings of passion and joy that I aspire in me, and others, forever!
God renews my joys and ambitions and passions and makes them always satisfyingly new! And always beneficial if done with His Spirit. He’ll do that for any of His children who seek Him.
I’ve gotten even closer to God this year, and in getting closer to Him, I’m always subtly gaining and growing (sometimes is significant growth and wisdom, mostly subtly after the beginning [God’s had my wholehearted focus for a few years now, so it’s not the beginning anymore for me lol]), and I have found myself so happy to be in my twenties! I love it! And I am enjoying every bit of it! And for a moment I want to make mention that I’ve enjoyed it sober!
Like the sober joys we had as carefree wide-awake humbly discovering amazing things in life children, I’ve been surprisingly bliss nonetheless. #thebest I’m saying this because I think some people don’t know it’s truly possible to enjoy yourself outside of that indulgence, but there’s whole other lifestyles out their to partake in where you instead indulge in good conversation, unities of kindness and pure affection and fun!
Now, I didn’t intentionally take on 21 pledging not to drink, there’s nothing wrong with mindful drinking (but if we’re being honest, do we really drink to be mindful?), it just naturally happened as I continued to surround myself with people and places I knew I’d grow closer to God with (which is the only important thing, not what you do, where you go or anything, but sincere seeking for that fellowship, and then wherever or however that happens so be it, and that may change our habits and surroundings, may not. God finds us and aids us in unique ways for our best and eternal best).
Anyway, 21 and I knew God promised to hold my future, and that He would create peaceful joy all along the way, but I didn’t expect that He’d lead me past so many of my anxieties and worries so quickly. I thought it’d be a dread to conquer my whole life, but the more I know Him the less I fear, worry or even get upset about. I still struggle sometimes, but not with dread. It’s like I’m excited to see what comes now, good or bad, because I know God’s promised victory for His children in the end, and so I just feel like some developing (warrior lol) character from a story or something, charging to my climax and triumph. lol
I say this in light of just having a birthday, (whoop, whoop!) but to also challenge your relationship and perspectives on God. We have such high callings and such a grand and special love above all others given to us, and we don’t know it in the way God desires us too! God’s children are loved to the extent where we have been selflessly given life in love and created for infinite joy, and offered promises that all pain and void will cease when our savior, Jesus, comes for us, or when we are restored to Him. A love that’s willing to guide us as a father now, bring out the best in us like our loved-ones, and be there for us like a friend. If we know that love intimately it changes everything! You don’t go through life struggling the same. You’re divinely loved! Be blessed yill! Prayers to you!